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Name: Anna
Country: United States
State: Arizona
Birthday: 7/16/1985
Gender: Female
Interests: i just want to get as much out of life as i can!
Expertise: Art and laughing!
Occupation: Student
Industry: Art
Message: message me
AIM:  lilKersh1985
Member Since:
8/28/2004
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| I feel alive... so alive.
I just spent the last couple of hours painting... I haven't painted since I graduated, I think.
It was wonderful. I was only painting the background color to a piece I am working on -- a color that I am not satisfied and so will have to do another coat when it's dry -- but that was more than enough to remind me what it feels like to be so alive, as well as how much I have missed it.
I didn't realize that I had forgotten what wet paint smelled like (not the smell that freshly painted walls in a house smell like... this is an ENTIRELY different, entirely beautiful, entirely comforting smell), what it felt like to have a perfect brush in my hand covering the rough canvas with smooth paint... I forgot how much I love having my fingers covered in an array of different colors, and even that I enjoy getting it on my clothes (which is inevitable).
I had forgotten one of the biggest parts of myself these last few months...
How did I live this long without painting? My soul needs this, it really does.
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| Couple updates:
1. Pablo and I spent the weekend in PHX. When we told people that our plans were to go shooting with my father on Sat. morning, they all look at Pablo and sai, "you're going shooting... with her dad...?" anyways, just wanted to let everyone know that we all survived, and we actually had a really great time (and, it turns out, Pablo is a natural at shooting -- i know how to pick 'em  ).
2. Below is a picture of where Pablo and I are going to be getting married. It's called Village Country Club, in Lompoc CA.
![image001[2]](http://x07.xanga.com/434c320263c33156041448/z116891757.jpg)
It's not the best shot of the location, but it gives you an idea.
The ceremony will be on the right-hand side, where the trees' shade is. The chairs will be facing the hedge on the left-hand side (so that the pond is on the audience's right).
Anyways, those are my updates. :)
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| Change... please...I was standing, with Pablo, in one of the bathrooms in his parents house this weekend, looking at myself, and the strangest, most foreign thought came into my brain: I am sick of my face; I want a new face!
I don't know where the thought came from, why I thought it, or what the heck was going on in my brain, but it was there nonetheless. I told Pablo and he said I was being ridiculous and that he would hate if I got any work done on my face.
I am not literally thinking about changing my face, I'm just kinda tired of it right now... I want a makeover, maybe...
Where are all my girls when I want a sleepover so that I can try on fun clothes, do my hair, my nails, and my makeup?!
COME BE WITH ME GIRLS!!!!! | | |
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Tonight, I want to stand at the edge of the ocean, see the moon shinning on the waves as they continuously roll in and their fingers tickle at my toes... I want to stand there, take a deep breath, and yell from deep in my belly. When I can't yell any longer, when I have released everything that has been building inside of me for weeks, I want to stand there, looking out at the vastness of the ocean and the sky and be reminded of how small I, and all my problems, are.
Do you want to join me there?
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| I don't really have anything to write right now...
Oh, my sister Sara is getting an MRI and a CT scan done, presently, actually... she had a seizer last week, so they are checking that all out... So yah, be praying for that, please.
Other than that, I don't have many words lately.
Well, actually I do have a lot of words, they just don't seem to be coming out anytime soon... it's very strangem, actually...
hmmm.
ok, well, enough rambling, i'm back to work. | | |
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