| i wish you were kinder to me
i wish you didnt take it personally when i lose small things, like a simple lighter
I know its gas, a flint, a cylinder and a chain reaction, cant we just pretend that it isnt?
i wish you gave me that physical contact that my body is aching for
i wish that you knew my brain is arming itself for a left/right argument
i wish you knew that I was writing this
i wish
i wish that i could catch the fucking bus
and
exit
the passenger always dies
the driver always survives
i dont want to be a passenger |
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| Blogs, Life, Etc.Someone left me a comment yesterday talking about how I rarely update. It's true, and I wasn't aware that someone even read this (let alone still used Xanga!). I guess nowadays, everyones on Myspace or Facebook or even Blogger so it seems in someways Xanga was a passing fad. I still check my Xanga everyday (god knows why). In my opinion Xanga was a lot more fun then Myspace or Blogger, it seemed a bit more personal and the community seemed a lot more in check.
What have I been upto lately? Well, mostly right now I'm working on finishing school, which I'll be done on November 4th and that should be pretty boss. There's been times where I've actually been in the office attempting to drop out/withdrawal and I've been talked out of it, and I guess I'm lucky that the teacher's cared enough to fight for me to stay. I've also finally got a job working at a sub shop as a cook. It's a pretty good experience and reminds me of my days working as a baker at Dante's, good times. Still have yet to purchase a car :(.
Nicole and I celebrated our one year, which is a pretty big deal to me. I've never made it one year with anyone, ever. It's pretty amazing, we may have the oddest arguments over the oddest things and sometimes really get in each other's face but I feel like it's all worth it in the end. She's the best girlfriend ever, and I mean that.
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| NGS: A RetrospectiveIt's been almost a year with i love a woman (who loves me) and we've had some amazing times and we've also had some times where it's been so fucked up that I'm amazed we stuck through it. You may doubt your love in me sometimes and ask me if I do love you and ask if I promise (and sometimes thats playful but sometimes you could be asking seriously). Rest assured, I do love you I do double pinky swear and forever no less.
I've been getting on your nerves off and on the past two weeks but that's life and relationships I suppose. I know you love me and you know I love you so that's what makes it work. Things have been clearing up a lot lately and day by day I miss you more and more when I'm not around you. I feel empty and naked when you aren't around. Too bad we're still a few years off from being able to live together and finalize it all. In due time I suppose, a year has went by really fucking fast and I can't even believe it's been almost a year. So another year or two won't hurt I suppose (though waiting does suck). Being with you makes the time go by so fast that I don't realize how long it's been.
I love you Nicole, thanks for sticking with me through every retarded thing I've ever done. I know it only gets better wiff yuo.
lub loo <3 |
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| Nikki Schofield ftw.
This is for you woman.
cheer up k.
<3
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